Luke

Today Ben and I had to say goodbye to a very good friend of ours, Luke. I met Luke the Bernese Mountain dog in late 2009, roughly the same time I met Ben. It was around this same time I decided to become a full time musician, which is a pretty rough decision to make. There’s lots of failure, self-doubt and fear involved in the whole process. While Ben was going to his real job I was at home writing songs, hating myself, and desperately trying to take myself seriously. I also had to take care of Luke. Were it not for that I may have melted into a pile of mushy mediocrity that smelled strangely of whiskey and marijuana. I have always had crippling shyness and there are some days I simply do not feel capable of leaving the house. But because of Luke I not only had to leave the house, but I had to talk to total strangers and explain to them what breed my beautiful dog was, how much he weighed, and how much he ate every day. It’s hard to walk a 135 pound dog with long lustrous hair around a creepy neighborhood and not get attention. Luke got me through the worst summer of my life in this way. We would walk to the park and lie in the grass together every day. Then he would listen to me writing “indestructible Machine” and never judged the crappy throwaway songs I may have had. He had energy I couldn’t muster up most days, but he could also be incredibly lazy, like me. At night when I tend to come alive, he was always there to have a dance party. Whenever I would go to the record player he was right behind me with a big smile on his face ready to do the two step. Unfortunately, cancer took our Luke away to soon at only 5-years-old, just 2 weeks before his birthday. We got to have one last party with him and even though he couldn’t dance through the pain, I know he was happy to watch us have fun. He always loved a party. Oh, and he might have eaten a TON of bacon on the night of his big send off.

Today was one of the hardest days of my life. But I know Luke is happier not being in pain. He knew we loved him and I think he has already brought me good luck from Heaven. Thank you Luke for making me a better person.